Karens Weight Loss Journal

Hi all

Today has been rather a mixed bag today as I have found out that a dear friend of mine is pregnant and have also read that two other "bloggers" are pregnant as well... all of this the day after my first angel would have been due... so I have shed a few tears this evening over that but at the same time I have to say how pleased I am for them all! And one day it will be my turn again!

But on top of this all; I have also had to deal with some very sad news - a very special and dear friend of mine has been told that she has to go into hospital tomorrow for a CT Scan as they suspect she has Stomach cancer! This has blown me away and even though we havetalked about the worse case scenerio over the last week or so this has blown me away and knocked me for 10! I went up to her place after work this evening for a wee while until her parents arrived from up the line... they are taking her out for dinner and want to spend some quality time with their daughter. So she goes into hospital tomorrow for a blood transfusion in the morning, a CT scan in the afternoon - has to stay the night and then first thing Thursday morning she is having "the tube down the throat to see the stomach" (sorry can't recall the correct terminology here) procedure! Once all this has been done, the specialist will then confirm the inital suspicions of the cancer but he is pretty confident on what he has seen from the inital scan she had the other day! She is a very special friend to me and I know all I can do is to be there for her and to offer her any support I can but at the same time I am feeling so useless but she knows I am here for her and that is the main thing! So I will be going to visit her at the hospital tomorrow after work... but her parents and her son will be with her through out the day so am pleased she will have their support to get her through the day.

So back to work - full on day as D was away today and I wasn't really with it as my mind kept wandering back to my friend and thinking about her appt with the specialist this afternoon and once she rung me and broke the news to me - I went downstairs and had a cry with "L" and then took her advice and packed up and headed home (it was about 3.45pm by now). So lets hope I can get quite a bit done tomorrow otherwise I will be in trouble... LOL Had a shock resignation today at work from one of the Snr Mgrs - am really gonna miss him despite our occasional run-ins we have had over the last couple of years. Everyone is a bit shocked over this and wondering what is going to happen to his role!

Food today has been relatively ok I guess considering the sort of day I have had.... everything has been good except 1 sante bar and a few fruit puffs this afternoon. Water - about 1.5 litres so am ok with that as that is the minimum I aim for each day. Exercise - well I was planning on a walk this evening but with the last minute visit to my friends place and then coming home and having a good cry with Steph and then doing dinner etc I never quite made it. But apparently Robyn from the gym rung whilst I was out to see how I was and if I was sore from yesterday - Steph didn't really know and said he thought I was ok... and overall I guess I was - was just a bit tender in the tum and bum which are the areas we are working on so she will be ok with that. Not sure if I will get to the gym tomorrow night as I would rather visit my friend in the hospital and if I do the gym, by the time I get home, showered, tea... it would be almost 8pm before I got down there and that is too late really.

Scales are still up a wee bit but at this stage I am not even sure if I will get to weigh in - will all depend on how my friend is doing - if she is still in hospital I will be going there (but then again weigh in is literally just down the road from the hospital so no excuse really) but even if she is home I will go and visit her there... so will see how the time goes on Thursday.

A big thank you to you all too for the emails and comments re my first angels EDD yesterday. They were lovely to get and touched my heart.

But right thats enough rambling from me - gonna ring my mum and tell her the news about my friend. Might try ring my sister too....

Catch ya all later