Karens Weight Loss Journal

Hi ya

Just a quick post to say a couple of things...
1) Thank you ALL so much from the bottom of my heart for your lovely supportive comments and emails since Thursday's hormonal post! Perhaps I should stay away from blogger when I am that down... as it doesn't happen that often (thank god) but I am a lot better today. Yesterday I was 50/50 but being so busy at work kept me occupied big time.

2) Yes I had my offical 12 week NT scan this morning........ and all is just fine! We have a 12 min video of it all and heaps of pics too. So once our scanner is up and running again I will scan a pic or two and post them on here but the rate that is going I will have had my 20 week one (as well as my at about 15 weeks to keep me happy) I promise there will be pics as soon as I can. The sonographer was wonderful and so friendly. Don't get the official results of the NT side of things until either my MW or the hospital contacts me but to be honest I am not too worried about that side of things.

But thats all I came on for at this stage - have had my haircut today and have to admit I have gone back to a similar style I had before my last cut. I loved my last cut (in my profile pic) for the first 3 weeks or so but once my hair started growing it got harder to manage and my naturally curly hair just didn't suit that style at all. Had lots of flash backs to my school days! LOL

Have just had cheese and tomato toasties for lunch so best we get some housework done since I am gonna be in Palmy tomorrow! Am so looking forward to that and having some scrumptious food! LOL And of course seeing all my friends too :) I did have a thought about how nice it would be for all of us kiwis (and perhaps the aussies too) to get together over a long weekend! The mind boggles at the talking etc but god it would be so much fun!

Right am going now.... catch ya all later.

**WARNING - BITCHY HOROMONAL POST AHEAD**

I have had enough!!!!!!!! Since buying this house we seem to have had nothing but problems! First there was the front door key issue (still unresolved), the stove issue (with the agents) and now after waiting a week to get someone out to check out the ariel situation - he only came to give us a quote and can't do the job until Monday or Tuesday next week!!! And it is going to cost us $373!!!!!!!!!! $373 that we don't have to spare at the moment especially after spending over $600 on a garden shed (definitely required as we have no garage) and $200 on bits and pieces for the shower (much needed) and extra rails etc for bathroom and a new lock for the laundry door! We still have to get new locks on the front and back door yet too!!! FFS - If I had known it was going to cost so much I would have stayed renting!

We do have savings (not heaps though) which I am trying to build on to use as a nest egg whilst I am on Maternity Leave (only taking about 5mths off) but I can see that dwindling down slowly but surely...

I am so sick of sitting at home listening to the damn radio! Yes I guess I could watch a DVD or video but don't want to do that - I want to watch my TV programmes - Shortland St, Super Nanny, Coro St, Extreme Home Makeover... and Stephan is missing all his action/crime ones like CSI, Spooks etc... Yes I guess we could try getting other quotes but since its taken this long to get one person here, by the time we get others around here (in the times that it suits us not just any time of the day) it could be weeks before we get the TV up and running!

I have a headache as well but don't want to go to bed just yet otherwise I will be wide awake half the damn night! Only ate tea about 30 mins ago but am hungry already so can see a nibbling episode coming up soon...

I want to get out and visit people as there are quite a few people I could visit but I can't be arsed doing that.... I want to do some more unpacking but it makes it hard when I can't do any lifting of the boxes etc... I want to visit Jude so much but well we know I can't do that either - and we now live so much closer to where she did as well. God I am missing her so much at the moment - I want her here going through this pregnancy with me like she promised me she would be!!! God why is life so unfair at times!

I went to weigh in as well and as expected I gained and it was more or less what I predicted as well - 1.7 kilos over the last 3 weeks! Barbara was ok with it as am I! Hey we have had Easter in that time as well and I did have a bit of chocolate... and my exercise has been pretty slack too of late! Perhaps I will get my energy back in the next couple of weeks or two...

Got the roadtrip to Palmy on Sunday with the gals - it will be so cool to meet Jenny (Jo's mum) and also Felicity (from down south) and it will just be great to catch up with the other Wgtn gals too! And of course the two princesses Rhian and Jorja will be there too... will be great too see how they get on with each other now that they are growing up!

Anyway, thats enough from me for one night - oh work is hell too at the moment! So all in all life is shit and I am sure that the scan on Saturday is going to produce bad news... I know I am supposed to think positively but that is easier said than done right now!

Catch ya all later - probably on Saturday after the scan etc... We have a Prenzels party tomorrow night at Lynaires place but I won't be doing any sampling apart from the Ice Cream Toppings of course...

See ya and thanks for listening to me moan and bitch!

PS Its just on 8pm and I have just demolished a whole bag of Salt and Vingear chips and feel even more yuck now! Might just head to bed and cry myself to sleep... (oh Steph is out at shooting too otherwise I wouldn't have eaten them all)

Hi all

Thanks for the advice on the stove issue - there is a lot of background to the sale of this place that I haven't gone in to detail on here but basically have raised the issue with the agent and waiting to hear back from him...

Well it was back to work today even though I didn't get there until almost 11am (after the dietitan) and boy there was heaps of work and lots of emails to catch up on - gonna be a real busy 3 days for me I feel!

Oh the dietitian appt went well though she didn't really tell me anything that I didn't already know after losing 40 odd kilos over the last 3 years! So its just a matter of eating more of the right foods and less of the "wrong" foods and keeping up my walking (which has been slack lately). I was really shocked that she didn't even weigh me - got the impression from her that as I knew already that I had gained a couple of kilos so far that she was happy for me to monitor myself. So overall a bit of a waste of time but go back for a review in August!!!

Still no front door key either but will follow that one up with Nikki tomorrow - surely its not that hard to track down the painter contractor who did the painting of the ceilings.

Oh just had a visit from Midwife - basically just did the blood pressure which was great as usual and then just chatted for 30 mins or so. Learnt some new things and had a good laugh at the same time. So seeing her again in 4 weeks time at which time we should be able to pick up bubs heartbeat through the doopler. Am 12 weeks today - and laugh when people say how time has flown but for me it seems to have dragged! Yet when I think of Carla and Kim who both announced their pregnancies during the same week as me - to me their pregnancies have flown by! LOL

Anyway, best I get moving - catch ya all tomorrow probably after I have faced the music at weigh in - its going to be a gain that much I am sure of but just how much remains to be seen...

Catch ya all later

Yeap am getting there slowly but surely... still got heaps of boxes to go but they are all down the other end of the house in the spare bedroom and the room that is gonna be bubs room. Sooooo what I can't see is ok in my eyes at the moment. The lounge, dining, kitchen, bathroom are all more or less done and our bedroom just needs a couple of things organised and all will be ok there too.

First thing on the agenda this morning was shopping for a new stove/range as the one here is disgusting, crappy and on the way out with one blown element already! But boy didn't realise how expensive new stoves were... we even checked out the second hand part of Newbolds to see what they had but we are still up for a few hundred dollars! OUCH! Nothing bought as yet but will definitely have to get one real soon. So in the meantime we are managing to cook meals on the stove as neither us are keen to use the oven!

Still no TV but waiting to hear back from an aeral place that Steph rung this morning - and I must admit even though it was nice for the first 24hrs or so without TV its starting to get frustrating now. I would be ok if I was away bush or something like that but with the TV sitting there teasing us it is getting hard! LOL Though probably harder for Steph than me as he is the main TV watcher in our place.

Had a phone call from the hospital today regarding my DR's latest referral for me she thought it might pay for me to see a dietican for some extra advice whilst pregnant especially with all the hard work I have done prior to the pregnancy. They have had a cancellation so am seeing him on Wednesday at 9.30am... If I wanted an early morning appt or late afternoon one I would have had to wait until late June!!!! Gees didn't realise there would be such a long waiting list for this sort of thing! It was definitely made clear to me that there is a long list and that the specialist picked me out of the list due to being pregnant so I really felt like I couldn't say no to the appt.

Anyway, best I get moving and make a start on the dishes - bring back the dishwasher! LOL Though at this stage there is NO room for one the way the kitchen is currently designed... but who knows what the future will bring....

Catch ya all later

Hi ya

Just a very quick post to let everyone know that we are now in OUR house. Had a few hiccups the day before but nothing that the stand-in lawyer (as ours was away) couldn't fix. Then got here to find that we only had back door keys - no front door keys so the poor movers had to get everything in through the back door which was a struggle at times but they did a great job. Will hopefully get the front door keys on Monday as they are with the painter contractor who was in doing the ceilings and he is in Fiji at the moment but apparently due back later today so all going well we will get them tomorrow sometime.

Still got HEAPS of boxes to unpack but am not going to stress about them - will just do them in my own time. Kitchen is far too small when it comes to cupboard space so really struggling there but slowly getting there I think.

Got the inspection of the old place this afternoon so that will be good to get that over and done with and our bond back.

Anyway, best I get moving as Steph has popped out to get some more speaker wire as we have no sounds yet and no TV either but have to call the Arial technician in the morning for that.

Oh shit before I go - just to say that all my bloods came back "normal" and go back to the hospital in 4 weeks time for another check up. And had my "reassurance" scan on Friday afternoon in between the unpacking etc - Steph couldn't come as he had to wait for the Telecom man to come so I had a friend come with me as a support person just in case... but all is well. Was so amazing seeing this wee thing with the facial features forming and little limbs where the arms and legs are starting to form. Very active wee thing too - doing heaps of flips and summersalts etc... Sonographer was very impressed... so am really looking forward to the offical one on Saturday and Steph will be able to see things too.

Right gotta dash - catch ya all later sometime.

Hi ya

This may be my last post until we move - but not sure when Stephan is planning on packing up the PC's though am guessing it will be tomorrow evening at some stage.

I am tired, shattered, exhausted, grumpy, hormonal, worried, stressed.... get the picture??? Not a pretty person right now and not one to be messed with either as people are slowling learning... especially Steph. We seem to be snapping at each other quite a bit at the moment - we are both tired from the packing etc and we really are making the effort to be nice to each other and respect each others feelings but at times we both just bite at each other!

Oh here is a pic of the house...


Have my appt at the hospital tomorrow to get results back from all those bloods that they took from me 4 weeks ago. One presumes if there had been anything major come back in the results that they would have rung me and gotten me to come in earlier... so will be finishing work early, then up to Upper Hutt to finalise the Insurance, then to the Real Estate Company to pick up the keys, then to Mitre 10 to purchase our new garden shed, then probably time for take aways, then home and do the last minute packing... so can't see me getting to weigh in really but if I find the time I will TRY... otherwise it will be next week to get the gain I am avoiding...

Right I am outta here - time to do some things before hitting the sack...

Catch ya all at some stage over the weekend I guess... but knowing Steph the PCs will be the last to be packed and one of the first things to be set up... LOL

*hugs to you all*

Hmmmm so much for going to work for a rest today - it was a full on day and I am probably even more shattered than I was last night! LOL So its 8pm so think I will head to bed shortly and perhaps read for a wee while if I can keep my eyes open long enough.

We did the final inspection of the house this evening - wow it looks so different empty but oh it is so clean! :) I love people who leave houses tidy! The vendor has had the gully trap fixed (as per our request when we signed the contract) and he has also repainted all the ceilings throughout the house! Wow thats great - one less job for us to do! The living area and the spare room/computer room are both a wee bit smaller than we remembered but thats all ok. I should have taken the camera and taken some photos of it empty but too late now but I promise to take some just as soon as I can. There are security latches on the windows in most rooms which is great too... the cupboard space in the kitchen may be a wee bit of an issue but am sure I will manage.

I spoke to Steph's sister in law yesterday and her mum who works at Pacific Radiology told her to tell me to get the extra scan done as they see women in there a lot more frequently than I go who just want the reassurance etc that things are going ok epsecially with a history like mine (or worse). So between moving on Friday and getting phone and power both reconnected, we now have a scan to go to at 2.45pm on the Friday. Might end up having to go by myself though as we need one of us at the house for when the phone/power guys turn up but will play that one by ear and see how we are going. So am looking forward to that and for the peace of mind I will have it will be well worth the water drinking etc...

But right - time I got moving, Steph has started stripping the spare bed and yelling things out at me... so best I get off my butt and go help him out. Catch ya all later.

Hi all

Just a quickie to say that I am so looking forward to going to work tomorrow for a rest! I am shattered and exhausted and so looking forward to going to bed real soon.
Yesterday was a great day despite the early ungodly start when Helena and Craig picked me up to be part of the support crew to watch Helena compete in the Duathlon (under my name). We also caught up with Sue there so it was fantastic to be able to support both of them and to capture their action on the camera :) Well done to both of you and may I be joining you next year :)
After Helena and Craig dropped me off - it was time to do a quick change, scoff down a Hot Cross Bun (having had toast etc at 6am) and then it was time to hit the road and head to Masterton. Picked up my sisters two youngest from Upper Hutt Station and had a great trip over the hill. Awesome afternoon over there with the most delicious roast lamb for lunch! OMG it was so nice and I ate so much! But enjoyed every mouthful of it! Then we had lots of yummy dessert too.... so between that meal and the general eating of Easter Sunday we left there feeling rather full. Must admit at one stage going back over the hill I thought I was gonna have to get Steph to pull over as I started feeling rather seedy but just wound the window down and the fresh air did wonders.
Today - well lets see - more packing, washing, cleaning Charlies cage, packing, packing, and yet more packing. Almost done now thank goodness! Stephs mum popped down for just over an hour or so and helped me finish the kitchen off and we started the job of wiping down the inside of the cupboards! Once they had left (his dad had come down to pick his mum up), we popped over to his brothers to drop some bits off and to give the kids their easter eggs, stayed there for a while yakking away and then popped up to Silverstream to drop off more easter eggs to his sisters kids and were there for another hour so by this time it was almost 7pm so there was no way we were going to go home and cook so fish and chips on the way home it was...
Oh well, this was supposed to be a brief one but typical of me once I get "talking" theres no stopping me! LOL
I am off to bed now - catch ya all later during the week.

Well its 7.50pm on Saturday and I think I will be heading to bed shortly... am totally shattered after a full on day tidying and packing! And I have just had a phone call from Helena saying that her and Craig will be picking me up at 6.30am tomorrow as part of the support crew for Helena doing the Duathlon as me. She even had to forge my signature today when signing the waiver form... ooops :) Oh well the things we do for our friends hey mate! *wink wink*

So have got the bike rack ready, my foldaway chair ready, my bag ready (with food, water, jacket and camera in it) so all I have to do when I get up is shower and have some toast. Its gonna be a long day cause as soon as we get home from that, it will be a quick change for me and then jump in the car, pick up my niece and nephew from Upper Hutt station and then head over the hill to Masterton for the afternoon and to have a family lunch at my sisters. It will make a change from packing but with the early start and approx 3hrs travelling (Masterton and return) I think I will be hitting the sack early then as well.

So recapping my weekend so far - packing, tidying, reminising, packing, dropping another full car load of stuff off to the Salvation Army shop and yet more packing. Oh some where in there we did the groceries but no housework has been done - too much like hard work moving around the boxes etc... so will probably just give the toilet and bathroom a quick going over on Monday and then next Saturday the whole house will be spotless as I have two friends from work and my sister coming to give me a hand to clean this place so with the ole saying "many hands make light work" it shouldn't be too bad and shouldn't take too long at all.

I have had some tearful moments as well today with the packing just proving to be too much for me and the decision making when going through old boxes of things I haven't seen for years... so these damn hormones have so much to answer for at the moment. Stephs mum is coming around on Monday to give me a hand to go through the pantry and kitchen cupboards (did some of them on Friday) and will clean the cupboards as well... so I think I will be ready to go to work on Tuesday for a rest! And its only a three day week for me this week and next week so am sure I can survive that.

Right, time to do some other things before hitting the sack but definitley can see me in bed by 9pm!

Happy Easter to you all and all your loved ones and families. I hope you are enjoying the quality time with them and for those travelling - may your travels be safe ones.

*hugs to you all*

Yeap its Thursday and the beginning of a long weekend... at long last I say! Didn't make it to weigh in today. I could have made it time wise but was absoutley shattered and also I had ended up having lunch at the pub (but no drinking of course) with some girls from work and I had the most scrumptious, delicious, mouth watering plate of bangers and mash!!! Yeap 3 devine sausages with a large pile of mashed spud with gravy and plum sauce! OMG it was so yummy but oh so filling... so that combined with the fact that I wore casual clothes today (since today was really Friday workwise) and they were a lot heavier than my normal weigh in clothes. So bascially didn't want to face the scales today and to be honest not sure if I will get there next week as well since that is the day before we move but will see how things are going then.

Though, Barbara has recently started doing Saturday mornings, so I MIGHT pop down there on Saturday - will see how I am feeling and what time I get up! LOL

Back to last night with my catch up with Helena - OMG we can talk when we get together but then I guess thats like any friends that get together! Yak Yak Yak... I do need to share one interesting fact that she shared with me and believe me it kept coming back to "daunt" me today whenever I thought about it! LOL We had been discussing my recent fetish for "Killer Crocs" - they are about 60c and are big wine gum crocidles bascially in all sorts of colours. Anyway, I told Helena I had demolished 5 yes FIVE of them yesterday and she shared this story with me that she got told at a WW meeting last year prior to Christmas (Warning some content may offend):
Basically, when you think of bowls of chippies, nuts etc at a party and you think of the number of hands that have been in that bowl amongst the nuts etc before your hands went in to get some... yes YOUR hands may well be clean but what about all the other party goers??? Have they all washed their hands after going to the toilet or have they scratched their butt lately or picked their nose??? So with that in mind, research has shown that bowls of food left for people to help themselves too are huge carriers of faeces!!! Yes thats right faeces! So as my "killer crocs" are in open containers that people pick their own from - she made me think how many other pairs of hands have touched that croc that I am eating! Yes I know I only touch the one that I am buying but who knows how many the other people have touched prior to me!!! Ok that really freaked me out and has put me off them big time! I then thought hang on - one place I purchase them from - the container is behind the counter and the staff use mini tongs to get them out HOWEVER the lid is not on the container so you then think flies and other insects, and people coughing and sneezing!!!! So I definitley won't be eating those again and Helena txt me this morning just to remind me "THINK OF FAECES" she said! LOL Thanks for the reminder mate! So I decided any lollies etc I may purchase now are in the form of wrapped or in sealed bags!

So thats my thought to share with you all...hopefully I haven't offended anyone by sharing that.

Not much else happening really - today was the day from hell workwise and I must admit it was probably the worst payrun we have had since I have been back at DOC! Talk about stress city - well initally all was ok but then next minute all hell broke loose - the phones didn't stop, the faxes didn't stop!!!

Oh I rang Pacific Radiology this morning and all of their clincs were fully booked today and they are not open this Saturday due to the long weekend! So bugger no scan more me until the 29th - well thats only 2 weeks away and I know IF anything was to happen I could get an emergency appt to have a scan but since I still have all the symptoms I just have to relax and take it easy!

Well a exciting weekend for us - NOT! Packing, packing and more packing! Oh and some cleaning too I guess. Though we do get a break on Sunday as I will be heading into town with Helena to support her and Sue in the duathlon and then home, change and Steph and I head over the hill to Masterton to have a family lunch over there. Oh must ring my sister and see if there is anything I can bring.

Right, my back is getting sore, and I am shattered... hope you all have a lovely enjoyable and safe long weekend and a very Happy Easter to you all and your families!

Hi

Very quickly as it is almost 10pm and Helena has just left here so thought I had better do a quick update before heading to bed.

Drs visit went ok - have got symptoms for both an inner-ear and outer-ear infection... trust me to have symptoms of both! LOL Dr has given me some drops so will put some in before crashing for the night. Dr also gave me a form for another scan but only if I can get in either tomorrow or on Saturday otherwise I will wait the two weeks to the 12 week one. I know some people think I am crazy wanting this extra scan but hey my history is making me paranoid and as the Dr says if it eases my mind and takes the stress of worrying away then it is all good.

Work was diabolical but tomorrow will probably be worse but we will manage! :)

Right time I was outta here - catch ya all later.

Hi ya

Well a busy couple of days for me and an early night ahead for me I think!

Both days have been full on at work - well today started off quiet but boy it certainly picked up thats for sure! Having a few more issues with the temp - "L" and I are starting to wonder if we are just too "set" in our ways and the temps can't fit in... but now that mgmt have FINALLY decided that we can advertise Jude's role as a permament one (long story behind there) we will hopefully get a great team member who will fit in with all of us.

Last night I ended up selling both my exercise machines that I mentioned in Sunday nights post to my dear friend Lynaire - she read my journal and sent me a txt saying she was dead keen on one of them so she popped around and decided she would take both of them! Then as she left, we had someone else turn up to measure up my computer desk that I had listed on TradeMe at the last minute and they had purchased it using the "buy now" button and then the next thing we know - they want to take it then and there so Stephan and the guy were disassembling it to fit in their car! Then a wee while later the next buyer turned up who had bought a tape deck off us.... had some tea and then we loaded the car up with the exercise machines (well Steph did anyway) and took them down to Lynaires for her, set them up and had a good ole yarn and catch up with her. But boy by the time we got home (about 9ish I think) I was so shattered - and once I had shut down my PC I hit the sack! But it was a good night - being able to sell 3 large items that we didn't really want to take with us when we move.

Tonight has been a bit quieter, just blobbing out but have had a funny tummy... nothing major or serious - just a bit of wind and constipation I think but I will be ok.

Going to the Drs after work tomorrow as I have had an ear that keeps popping off and on for the last month or so and recently it has started aching off and on as well... and I have also been having dizzy spells so thought I had better get it checked out. So might mention the tummy issues too and see what she says... might even sweet talk her in to giving me a referral for another scan as I would love to have another one (and yes drink the water too) just for reassurance. Despite the fact that I am still shattered, still nauseaus 24/7 and still have sore boobs I start to wonder "what if"...

Not much more to say really - eating hasn't been the best but hey I ain't stressing about it. Still eating at least 2 pieces of fruit a day and drinking about 1.5 litres of water a day so am ok with that.

Will try to update you after the Drs visit tomorrow but have Helena popping around to discuss the Duathlon on Sunday - as she is doing it for me I am part of her support crew so will discuss transport etc as well as have a good ole yakker!!! I will also be there supporting Sue so must remember to take my camera to take some photos of you lovely gals crossing the finishing line. The long range forecast is looking good for Sunday though so thats great.

Catch ya later

*hugs*

Holy Moly - where do the weekends go??? Can't believe its Sunday evening already! Though I guess when one has been packing, eating, packing, eating (get the idea LOL) time does go fast... or in my eyes the weekend has gone fast. ALMOST looking forward to going back to work to get a break!

So what have we done this weekend - not a lot really. Friday evening was quiet - emptied the linen cupboard and packed majority of that up. Saturday, we had an appt at 10am (though I thought it was 9.30am oooops) at the bank to go through all our mortgage doucments! I thought we were going to be signing them but apparently we do that with our lawyer... great more costs! So all we ended up doing was going through the terms/conditions and then signing the papers to open an account to service the mortgage payments since its not our usual bank (you will recall we went through a broker). But as I am a Govt employee we get great discounts etc at the bank and also $500 towards legal costs so thats all great!

After the bank, we dropped off 15 supermarket bags full of clothes, sheets, duvet covers etc to the Salvation Army shop in Lower Hutt! That felt so good to one get rid of them from our spare bedroom (can now see the floor) and two to be helping others in the community. We have since discovered we are going to have more to donate but will probably do that the Saturday after we move as its only a couple of bags.

What else did we do on Saturday, groceries, packing, picked up HEAPS of more boxes from a friend that moved last week... in fact I think we have too many now! But I can say this - Sue those small boxes you got for us have been invaluable and so damn handy for so many things! Thanks heaps! :) So we have now offically cleared out the bathroom as I did the bathroom cupboards in the morning and threw away so much crap we had in there! And my computer desk is now more or less clear of junk... am now contemplating whether we list it on Trade Me since we have the laptop we don't really need such a big desk.... so will have a think about that. We had a quiet night last night - ended up getting a couple of DVD's out - we got Mr and Mrs Smith (which I had seen at the movies with Jude) and also The 40yr old virgin! I have not laughed so much in ages at that movie - heaps of swearing in it but man it was hillarious and just the movie I needed to wind down. Whilst out, I decided to get Texacana burgers for tea - normally I have one of their chicken ones as I am not a huge beef pattie fan but with the pregnancy etc I thought I better play it safe so I had their basic beef one. Nice but not as exciting as the chicken ones.

Today, we packed the car with 6 boxes of my brothers stuff (I didn't realise there were so many of his in the garage) and then picked up my neice and headed up to Mums to drop off the boxes and for lunch. She has decided to resurect her CrockPot and had made a yummy steak casserole for lunch so a big meal for lunch and even got Ice Cream for dessert we don't really need much for tea at all. Though as I thought, my stomach is now rumbling - oh the joys of being pregnant! LOL But still think we will probably just have toasted sandwiches. We did stop at the fish truck in Paekakareki (excuse spelling) and got some Terahiki for tomorrow night (and also some for the freezer) but the more I think about the fish the more I want it tonight... so MAY end up having that with some oven baked fries... who knows!

Have sold two more items on Trade Me but have listed a few more things yesterday including two old exercise machines that were my mother in laws but she doesn't want them back and we have no room for them so have thrown them on Trade Me for $5 reserve so hopefully we get rid of them. They are pretty old but do work so am sure someone out there will want them. Actually, if any of you local ladies are interested in those, or a breville bodyzone foot spa (only used once) just yell out and I can always cancel the auction since there are no bids on them as yet. Sorry should have asked here first.

Anyway, time to get moving, things still to do... though not sure if we will actually get any more packing done this evening.

Hope you all have a good week - a nice short one this week with the Easter break coming up.

Hi ya

Not too much to say really except I wandered along to weigh in expecting another gain as I was up 100gms on the home ones... but the scales were definitely on my side today recording a 500gm loss! Yipppee!!! Am pleased with that considering my food intake but hey like I said I am not gonna stress about my food and just go with the flow and just accept whatever the scales tell me but hey like any of us on the weight loss journey - when we lose we are gonna be happy! :)

Work today wasn't too bad - cruisey at times but busy at others... "L" and I are trying to work through an issue for a staff member going back to 2000 and its proving to be very time consuming. We ended up getting 2 boxes in from Archives this afternoon to assist us in our inquiry so we go to the next step tomorrow all going well. My boss has "donated" to the team a sandwich/panini press which will be great for toasties etc over the winter. And as I had planned on tomato sandwiches today it was great to be able to toast them - makes them even more yummier! And we have a spare toaster here which I was going to give to the Salvation Army but as we don't have one on our floor at work - I might take it into work so we can have soup and toast during the winter as well.

Am just waiting for a lady to turn up to collect a couple of items she bought off me through Trade Me - hopefully she turns up otherwise I will be pissed off as I am thinking of popping out after tea.

Speaking of tea - Steph is cooking Nachos tonight - though with my guidance as he hasn't made them before! LOL

Right they are almost ready - catch ya all later

*hugs*

Just wanted to do a quick post to say yet another thanks to you all for the lovely comments and emails. There must have been a problem with Xtra yesterday as when I checked my mail this morning there were emails from some of you lovely ladies that were sent yesterday morning/afternoon but only just showed up this morning so to you all thank you once again.

Not too much to say really - just the usual tiredness and grumpiness. I think I was pissing my boss off this morning as one minute I was grumpy, then I was happy, then I was grumpy again etc etc... and the poor guy never knew what mood I was in when he would ask me a question. Thank god I settled down by about lunch time! LOL

Did a bit of retail therapy at lunch time with L - managed to score myself a lovely pair of black dress pants (with stretch in them) that were marked down from $44.95 to $19.95! What a bargin.... oh that was from Ballentynes :) L got herself a pair of trackies from Millers so we both felt like we had done quite well with our misson.

Food today hasn't been the best but am really enjoying my smoothies though unfortunately I have discovered another cafe that does them but they make theirs with Tip Top Ice Cream along with the bananas and berries! YUM YUM! Gotta be good for me surely with the calcium! LOL Also finding myself really "craving" a small bag of chippies in the afternoons at the moment - they really do seem to make me feel so much better and they do pick me up and keep me going until I get home anyway :)

At this stage, I find myself eating:
6.20am Breakfast
9.00am Snack (fruit or scone)
10.45am Snack (fruit)
12.30pm Lunch
2.45pm Chippies (or something from snack box usually)
5.15pm Snack (crackers with vegemite)
6.30pm Tea
8.30pm Snack (sometimes)

Hmmmmm so yes I am eating a bit I guess but boy believe me if I don't eat I get light headed, the nauesa gets worse, tum plays up, and sometimes I find that if I ignore it too long I will get a headache as well... Oh thats right I wasn't going to talk about food - guess old habits die hard! :)

Anyway, the dishes won't do themselves unfortunately and with the new house not having a dishwasher we gotta get back into the habbit of doing them. Yes the dishwasher has been stacked but there are still the things that can't/don't go in the dishwasher. Also gotta get off my arse and do some more tidying/packing...

Once again, thanks for all your support - you guys rock and mean so much to me!

*hugs to each and everyone of you*

except an enourmous heart felt THANK YOU to each and every one of you for the most amazing comments that have been left on last nights blog and to those that emailed me directly as well! I have been totally blown away by them all and have shed many a tear reading all the wonderful, lovely, supportive comments and emails! For those of you who, who have come out of the "woodwork" to comment - thank you so much - that means so much to me!

I certainly didn't mean to come across like I was ungrateful for the comments that I have been receiving as I certainly do appreciate each and every one of them! I guess I felt hardly anyone was reading my blog anymore and was there much point in continuing but after your comments - you can't get rid of me! I will continue with my blog but perhaps not daily (like I have tried to do for the last 3 years) - just when I feel like it - maybe 2/3 times a week.

I won't be talking about the food side of things unless of course I guess I have some exceptionally good or bad to say! You all know I am trying my best to eat healthly during the pregnancy but at times that is way easier said than done! I am also doing my best to drink a minimum of 1.5 litres of water a day as well... the only thing I have been lacking in is the exercise - and well I walk when I can at the weekends but at the moment the majority of the time it takes too much energy - energy which I just don't seem to have right now... perhaps after the first triemester I will rediscover it!

Speaking of the pregnancy... I thought I was getting my nuchal fold scan at my next appt at the hospital clinic on the 20th April but after hearing some info I thought I had better ring and check... and no I am not getting it then, they just give me the referral to have it done. Thank goodness I checked - so have rung Pacific Radiology and booked it in for Saturday 29th April :) So its still 25 days away but with the move etc hopefully the time will fly.

Right this has taken me a while to write between dinner and Shortland St ad breaks - so best I post it.

Once agin a huge thank you to each and everyone of you and I am sorry if I ever doubted that nobody cares cause I sure as hell now know that you do! Lets put it down to the hormones!!!

Okay I am here and I am posting but still not 100% sure of what I want to be doing as yet... What I may end up doing is just posting when I feel like it so perhaps only a couple of times a week - I am just struggling to update some days and seem to have so little energy.
It is quite hard to describe how I am feeling right now - I feel that I am talking a load of crap most nights and that no one is interested in what I am saying... the weight loss side of things has totally disappeared from my journal and I feel now that I am no longer as interesting to read as there is no motivation or inspiration coming from my blog.
If I was to talk soley about the pregnancy I would have you all running a mile in the opposite direction... and yet thats all I am thinking about. I am shit scared to tell you all the truth - scared that we will lose this precious baby as well, scared that if we don't lose it - of how I will handle the pain of birth, scared of how I cope as a Mum and Steph as a Dad, scared of how we are going to cope with a mortgage and a baby, scared of losing the house (and we haven't even signed the papers yet)... so yeah lots of thoughts going through my mind right now.
My food is not the best and I want to keep any gain to a minimum but yet all I want to do is eat, eat, eat... and not necessarily the right/good stuff either. Though am definitly eating more fruit than ever before so surely thats gotta be a good thing... and top that fruit of with the berry/banana smoothies I have at least once a week - thats lots of fruit for me! Though am managing to keep a fairly decent intake of water up each day so am ok with that I guess. I was so looking forward to being able to walk each day but walk - whats that? Maybe once a week if I am lucky - and thats only if I have the energy! Most days when I come home, I crash on the bed for about 30mins or so before contemplating organising dinner or helping Steph do the dinner.
The other thing I want to say but not sure how to say it... so I guess I may as well just come out and say it - and that is I know there are lots of people "reading" each day - thats why I put the counter on my site to give me an idea of numbers but when I look at that counter each night and compare it to the number of comments - it does make me wonder how many people do really "care" so to speak. And before you all jump down my throat and say "we care" I know you do - its just that sometimes it really does feel like very few do. This is probably me just being a grumpy horomonal bitch but thats how I am feeling and I was adament that when I updated tonight that I would speak the truth.
Work today was diablocial - the temp is driving both L and I up the wall - perhaps we are too fussy for who we want in our team - we don't know but what we do know is that we don't want "F" there permamently! She drives us batty for various reasons and is so slow work wise!
Oh then there is the house and the move - only 2 weeks, 4 days till we move and there is still so much to do. Well on saying that we have the lounge more or less cleared now and the computer room has been started as well. And I have 12 shopping bags of clothes to donate to the Salvation Army shop at the weekend and thats just from the clothes that were in the spare room - haven't even started on my wardrobe yet! LOL
Anyway, thats me for tonight - I know its a bit jumbled tonight - have basically said whats come to mind each time rather than thinking it all through so I do hope it all makes sense...
So please, if you normally are a "lurker" - do leave me a comment from time to time just so I know you are still reading - make a pregnant woman happy! LOL

Ciao

PS A huge thanks to ChubbyMum for being there for me over the weekend - means so much to me hun! You are a wonderful woman and I so wish we lived closer together! YOU ROCK!!! Thanks again xxx

Hi ya

Well I thought I would just take a wee break from packing as I was getting a numb bum from sitting on the floor wrapping photos and ceramics etc... Oh the joys of packing - don't you just love it! Have had a txt from my friend who moved yesterday to say they have lots of boxes already unpacked and are ready for us to collect them either today or tomorrow so might leave that till tomorrow at this stage. This time in three weeks we will be in our new place and there will be just over an hour before the final inspection by the landlord at this place. Doing all the moving on Friday, spending Saturday here cleaning and then we have 3 days to unpack etc at the new place as we both have the Monday off work and then Tuesday is a public holiday for ANZAC day.

Stephan has gone up to his parents to borrow their trailor so we can start loading that up with all the stuff to go to the tip tomorrow. Still have a trip to Mums to make at some stage with 4 boxes of stuff that belong to my eldest brother who has been overseas for about 6 years. As our new place doesn't have a garage (as yet), Mum has agreed recluantly to store it at her place until Phil comes over at Christmas time and then he has to sort what he wants to sell and what he wants to take back to Ireland with him.

So apart from housework, washing, groceries and packing - not a lot happening in our place this weekend. I think we are going to go out for tea tonight - we were thinking of going into town to the Ghengis Khan with friends of ours but unfortunately Lynaire is not well so they are unable to come but we think we might still go out but perhaps just stay in the Hutt Valley.

Anyway, not much more to say - oh am thinking of stopping my journal for various reasons which I am not going to go into on here... but will keep you posted. Hope you are all having a good weekend.